Because there’s just too much mystery to clean up in my life…

Hey, there! <3

I'm doing a documentary on Mental Health and its institutionalization within our different communities. I'd love to hear from you if you're interested in being part of it. Back in 2016 or so we started this project which at that time was called "Revolving Door." We found out other films had already been called this with very nearly the same topic.

However, we went on hiatus in 2020 or so because of some personal legal issues. Now that I've won my court case, I'm back on the wagon of thinking of doing this venture again with film.

There are too many ways to make film these days. I'm hearing an owl hooting "who who who who" in the background of my place here. And I'm wondering the same... Who who who & who are we going to need to get this picture finished?

We are thinking of creating two ends of it: one as a feature length film for publicity, and another as an ongoing online interactive project that acts as a "choose your own adventure" version of the film. The advantage of this kind of interaction is that people who might need trigger warnings or just simply aren't in the mood for one kind of story don't actually have to watch the whole thing. Anyone can simply experience only the parts they want. We are hoping to feature something for everyone.

Meanwhile, if anyone happens to want to join the Wildflowers' Movement support group you could potentially meet me and others in the community online as peers. We meet once a month on second Tuesdays at noon Pacific. https://wildflowersmovement.com

I’m shy, and I equate my experience of it with my sexual identity and my soft-spoken manners that accepted miscommunication as normal. The expectation of wanting or being wanted sexually is in itself kind of stressful especially for people who aren't ready for it. I think when I was a kid I had an almost nostalgic kind of fascination with being much much older. I was knitting as young as a grade school student, and fantasizing of myself in my senior years. It was comforting knowing how much safer I'd feel, to be someone who was not expected to be sexual.

Meanwhile, my white haired reality is slowly setting in as I feel older now, and I feel much more at home with knitting in public. I'm looking forward to the slow and steady parsing of work that I'm hoping to find for myself with this documentary. I think as a younger person, I tended to work too hard, and my sleep patterns would suffer just to get stuff done on time. My goal with this new work is to continue to tread steadfastly and without fear of procrastination or of failure because it should just come when it needs to come.

Hmm... the owl stopped; or maybe it found a new place to do it. I think that means we're done for now. I hope you had a good hoot. Thanks for reading my very random kinda posts here.

“How thoughts become things” and the law of attraction is something that many colleagues (especially VC) would recommend often.